please...

I am getting old. I know I am. I feel it. I am becoming the older dude. I am still hanging around this stupid fucking town for one more week. Everything here lately is so abrasive and I cannot stop drinking if I start because it's either smoke it away or drink it away or sleep it away or fuck it away or whatever...but it's just lingering around like the bugs in my kitchen and bathroom. It probably wouldn't be as bad if it were just over with I would've respected this place a lot more...but all the shit that has gone down this past year and especially the past few months or so and then the slowness of graduation and moving and the totality of it all just starts to grab you by the chest and shake you around in all directions.